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Mea Culpa

by Dead End Drive-In

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1.
Wake up Isn't it time you go to bed? You're letting life be one big bad habit Now you're all out of cigarettes Get your thumb and play the world's smallest violin No one cares how this all happened Shut up and take it on the chin I've got my fingers lodged so deep inside my ear So I won't have to face the music I can't hear and if I close my eyes it will all disappear but my insidious friend says this isn't the end He's going to make me do it all again All again Well poor fucking you The Devil made me do it He put a gun to my head And I'm losing all control And it's chipping at the soul God knows that it takes a toll Ain't I so original?
2.
Well I feel the press and pinch like cork under thumbtacks I hope the gerbil in my wheel dies of a heart attack But the eternal drum loop in my brain just won't skip a beat I'm left repeating myself until I become history I keep on waiting for something here to start changing But to peel that bandaid off would feel a little too scathing And so I close up, wait till that last grain of sand drops, and I just give up There's no lightbulb moments in my brain They're all burnt out and all need changing And I don't care enough to fix it I'm just making it up as I go along I'm just making it up as I go along Apathy, it kills again It knocks me down another peg Apathy, it kills again I'll wake up someday, wake up someday
3.
Echo Chamber 03:52
From when you're born 'til when you're dead I guarantee you'll butt some heads while trying to conjure up some sense of hurtling through nothingness So find yourself a patch of dirt where you can grow your roots, Solidified in what you've proclaimed universal truths, And all opposing force is met with the heel of your boots Down in the echo chamber in the echo chamber Revel in your shepherd-less flock, Embrace the death of dialogue Cuz words are sacred, talk is cheap as you cling for dear life to beliefs When argument surfaces it's condemned as void and null while you're surrounded by like-minded individuals, And thank fuck you found this school of thought and harnessed some control Down in the echo chamber, in the echo chamber A self-assured ideal's the toughest nut to crack when you're huddled 'round each other patting yourself on the back And you'd never stoop so low to admit you might not know When it's black and white, why ever look that close?
4.
Man crawled out the slime a subservient slave spanking his monkey Now our little boy has grown into a social media junkie And if a million questions are being yelled in my ear, then each one of them is going to stump me And as I brave this chaotic storm, I've got my fingers crossed that I get out in one piece I stand atop a hill of trash and start to separate it into piles Couldn't escape the onslaught of stimuli if you walked five thousand miles And to conjure up an original thought, well wouldn't that be a treat? Well I'm looking for some authenticity as I'm rummaging through the heap But this sponge is saturated This sponge is saturated Why do I make decisions? And why should I even care? Did I plant this seed myself or did something else put it there? I watch my independent mind wander off into a fog of static I bite off more than I can chew, choke it down and cough it right back up so emphatic
5.
Floodgate 04:11
Feeble, broken and so sore from leaning onto my own sword and these words have brought me here before and now we're ready to lock horns If we both acted so perfect could we honestly tell ourselves that we deserved it? Cuz that makes me nervous I said it, you heard it Is trying to be better an endeavour that's worthless? The sticks and stones we throw start to feel heavy and soon we'll both regret breaking the levy The meter teeters, the pressure's amounting We toss straws on our backs, but who's really counting? No winners, just losers, we both take a pounding Floodgate is open, and now we're both drowning Warfare we know serves no purpose but this red smokescreen we see is going to convert us and expose resentments that lurk 'neath the surface Now I'm certain to be better is an endeavour that is worthless
6.
We relied on strangers' kindness, but we found a stranger kind And we played some Russian roulette, but we had ourselves a pretty good time And the two nights up in that town were so heavy on our heads So we drove back to Vancouver, sanity hanging by a thread Well we drove ten hours with no real plan Bought some records and saw some shitty bands Then we took the leap of faith, snatched the candy out his hand Should have slammed the door, but we left it wide open Suspension, throwing caution to the wind Mea culpa for the mess I've got us in And the wolf shed his sheep's clothing, and his mouth it started foaming, ready to kill Where is this place we've landed? We flew so high we were stranded on that hill
7.
Swing a club around a fire Let the machismo inflate Pound your chest as you regress into a primal state If you're spewing up oceans of impudence you might get caught up in the squalls and swells But you'll still stand to attention at a ship's bell You're standing on the ledge of a bridge, why the hell would you think it through? Cuz when one dog barks, then the pack is barking too The pack barks too The pack barks too The pack barks too You always sneered at those types as you stood from afar But now you find yourself singing from their repertoire You'll flip a car, smash a window while you drink from the loving up Vomit terms like "lapse of reason" but no one laps that up No one laps that up Pumped fists and guttural chants from a loud, dogmatic few And common sense shrieks inside you head, but nothing that it says is true And you're standing on the ledge of a bridge, Why the hell would you think it through? Cuz when one dog barks, then the pack is barking too
8.
Hey kid, keep your mouth shut or you're going to fill up on the words you'll be eating Young, angry and bitter, but that piss and vinegar is going to sweeten Convictions aplenty already forgetting hindsight's twenty-twenty Not wiser, just older pushing up a boulder while old passions smoulder Cuz your pride, it will be aching and your head, it will be shaking when you see just how mistaken you were to take a stake in thinking you knew anything Today you're just tomorrow's idiot Today you're just tomorrow's idiot Today you're just tomorrow's idiot Today your head's stuck in the clouds You said you'd do things differently Well you'll be saying that again
9.
Bus 04:40
Transit woes, with my float and my bill fold Shaking off rain and fogging up the windows An unbeknown force turns my head as the doors close to see an old familiar face We knew each other in another chapter before that suit and tie racket had you Was hoping that never was forever after Call it a cruel twist of fate Now I'm sinking so very low into my chair And I don't think you even knew that I was there But a glimpse at your profile has riled me up And all of my failures are piling up As if the last eight years was an arms race that blew me up God forbid if we were to lock eyes and you felt compelled to sit down by my side Crack open my shell to see what was inside and let the silent judgement start A strong-armed and meek conversation A thousand deaths and reevaluations And we'd depart with a brief salutation that only carried half a heart If I never see you again it'll be too soon I'll be waiting on tables singing the same old tune Please don't make me fumble for an excuse You got me lured, now cut me loose I've had our whole conversation without saying a word to you Always on the losing end when I argue with myself I'm always on the losing end when I argue with myself Who am I really trying to fool? Who am I trying to prove it to? Who am I really trying to fool?
10.
Chameleon 05:52
Well I sit here in the skin I'm in, accustomed to assorted pokes and prods And I feel like a chameleon, deceptive and accommodating fraud I don't think we really get to choose Subconsciously let my true colours fade Why provoke with my most vibrant hues, when I'll flourish in assimilated greys? Well this flesh and blood are the walls of a cell Need a rock to crack into the innards of a shell There's a spirit, I can hear it at the bottom of a well screaming for me Well that ghost was human 'til it floundered and sank It was so bloated from all of the Kool-Aid that it drank, Thought the canvass was flawless when it was left blank and so boring Ain't it so forlornly? You can bend until you break in half, conditioned to contort at social cues Fending off all potential riff-raff as I wiggle my way into the grooves Well who knows what's dragging it from the deep? Am I speak from the heart or talking in my sleep? Want to crawl back in the womb, pull my head under the sheets and just leave me Well you can lie through your teeth 'til your face turns blue You can beg for approval and ask for it too Now I'm binding my feet to slide on the glass shoe so appeasing Hell I'm changing with the seasons And if I get pricked, I'm going to bleed and that pressure keeps me on my knees It puts the weight on my shoulders and it's taking its toll It's what drags the price tag gun across my soul But it's not my call It's not my fault Or is it call my call? and all my fault? Well this fortress ain't strong, soon enough it's going to crumble and when it does, I'll be standing naked in the rubble Left stranded, I'm stammer and stumble and struggle to exhale these final words, "boy, I'm sure in trouble" But to be exposed and flapping naked in the wind and to feel the world's embrace shining down on my skin, will grant this twisted soul the realization, that to falsify myself would be the deadliest sin CHAMELEON!

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"Dead End Drive In makes music for people who smoke three cigarettes at the same time and can punch through a pane of glass without being phased. With the release of their first full-length album Mea Culpa, the Vancouver-based band has showcased their uncanny ability to make you reminisce about rowdy times that you never even had. Through concrete lyrics and vocals that are both wailing and gritty at the same time, Mea Culpa makes you nostalgic for back alley fist fights and sleeping in until dinner time. While there is a sense of whimsical grunge presented, this is no doubt overpowered by the sheer amount of realness and relatableness presented on the ten tracks."
- Rekt Chords Magazine

"This isn’t a short record by any means, but it’s entirely likely that when it does finish you’ll have been having so much fun with it that you’ll wonder why there isn’t more. This is a band to watch."
- Syd Ghan, Bucketlist

"It's not a punk album in the traditional sense but captures the punk rock spirit tremendously. The songs are extremely well played and the lyrical content is superb. I love finding bands like this that I've never heard of and being blown away by just how good they are. What a great find, a great album and a great band."
- Colin Clark, Colin's Punk Rock World

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released September 14, 2018

Recorded and engineered by JJ Heath at Rain City Recorders
Mastered by Stuart McKillop at Rain City Recorders

Album art by Scott Lougheed

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Dead End Drive-In Vancouver, British Columbia

Punk band from Vancouver, BC. You know. That one with the 3 guitar players. Gotta shred with existential dread.
EARLY ONSET RECORDS.

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